Inevitable Darkness

His eyes were blue; Color of the ocean

His skin was cream; Like lilac lotion

His hair was black; It matched the night

I loved him dearly; He beat my height

He loved to joke; And play fun games

I love his title; Missieur James

His heart was kind; But he was poor

He didn’t care; He slept on the floor

He used his money for those he loved

I felt ashamed; I was still gloved

I left my family when he asked to wed

I left my rich home to be with him instead

I helped him care for people in need

Helping the children, I no longer felt greed

We married under the trees near a Church

We had found God together; no longer needed to search

He died before I at age eighty-four

I died a year after, knowing I had helped the poor

We had done a good deed; James and I

We left the world in peace and went together into the sky

I can’t believe I did it again

I don’t want to believe it’s true

I can’t stand knowing it was I who hurt you

I want to go away

And leave you be

Perhaps that’s best; you without me

I never planned for this to happen

You were the sister I never had

I’ve hurt you again accidentally; I feel so bad

I never meant to hurt you

I only wanted to care

But I guess the real me isn’t meant to share